just say it...
i don't know whats going on with me lately.. feeling so bad! and my heart just filled with sadness and numbness..and sometimes i feel really lonely.. i feel like there is no one beside me.. i feel like there is no one to be next to me.. GOD.. why did i feel like this?? i need a solutions..i also feel like someone that i love the most is trying to be apart from me.. even my friends also ... hurmmmm... there is no more tranquility and serenity in my heart! sometimes i feel like there is no space for me in this world.. n i feel like i do not deserve to be on the surface of the earth...
why did i feel like this?? and i swear this feeling really drive me nuts! and most of the times i feel like i wanna die earlier.. and maybe it is the best solution for all of this.. but i think if i die now would other people do care about me?? i don't think so.. i think better i die now!
MY LORD.. please stop making me feel like this.. i ca't stand with it.. i'm not as strong as others to face your test my LORD.. i'm just a small slave whom really weak and do not strong enough to make my own decisions, to confront your test, to deal with all of my problems.
and most of the times i feel like there is no one would ever love me! no one would ever like me! no one would ever accompany me! and i sick of it! i want an end for all of this . i want a solution for all of this . i want something to cheer me up!
and i think all of this problems just a big burden on me.. hate it! i swear i really hate it!
and sometimes i feel like my lover doesn't seem to love me.. i don't know why i keep thinking that.. but my heart keep saying that.. however i still wanted to deny it! i know my lover do love me! i know it!! and i hope so..i meant it! i hope my lover also feels the same! :(
and i hope this song is the best describe my feeling now..