no mood to cheer me up
waking up a little bit late today due to the lateness of sleeping last night. when upon opening the eyes, everything had already gone wrong, and just felt like wanna make it worsen! don't know what is going on with me today. looking at the calendar, yeah already 5th December, it has been 2 month a left my home town Malaysia chasing for Egypt.
i thought everything will accept me well after two months being here, but it doesn't seem so well. Two of my Grandmother just passed away yesterday. No feeling of happiness that usually decorate me in the morning and throughout the day. just sadness and dullness filled my heart. My Lord, stop this feeling, i can't handle it with my own hands. Sorry to say. :(
still remember my excitableness when looking my Papa name appears at the phone screen yesterday. thinking about fabulous things when looking at Papa name yesterday, but it was totally wrong! everything was turn upside down. No more grandma that will pamper me and talk with me and treat me well! Ya Allah, be strong Hariz. it was just a test from Allah. He won't test us if we can't handle it. okay, be strong, i know i can make it!
i don't know how to express myself today, just too sad. Yeah, maybe i won't burst into tears from the outside, but my heart to hurt, feeling like something that i love the most had been snatched away, had been stolen by someone, had been robbed by someone. okay, enough Hariz, you must strong, this sadness won't end if you don't stop it by yourself!
Gosh, still won't stop crying. okay, stop here, ca't write any longer than this. bye.. :'(
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no mood to cheer me up
waking up a little bit late today due to the lateness of sleeping last night. when upon opening the eyes, everything had already gone wrong, and just felt like wanna make it worsen! don't know what is going on with me today. looking at the calendar, yeah already 5th December, it has been 2 month a left my home town Malaysia chasing for Egypt.
i thought everything will accept me well after two months being here, but it doesn't seem so well. Two of my Grandmother just passed away yesterday. No feeling of happiness that usually decorate me in the morning and throughout the day. just sadness and dullness filled my heart. My Lord, stop this feeling, i can't handle it with my own hands. Sorry to say. :(
still remember my excitableness when looking my Papa name appears at the phone screen yesterday. thinking about fabulous things when looking at Papa name yesterday, but it was totally wrong! everything was turn upside down. No more grandma that will pamper me and talk with me and treat me well! Ya Allah, be strong Hariz. it was just a test from Allah. He won't test us if we can't handle it. okay, be strong, i know i can make it!
i don't know how to express myself today, just too sad. Yeah, maybe i won't burst into tears from the outside, but my heart to hurt, feeling like something that i love the most had been snatched away, had been stolen by someone, had been robbed by someone. okay, enough Hariz, you must strong, this sadness won't end if you don't stop it by yourself!
Gosh, still won't stop crying. okay, stop here, ca't write any longer than this. bye.. :'(
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ahmad hariz izzuddin, students of alexandria univerity egypt, faculty of medicine, 24 november 1993,love Allah, Rasulullah, Parents, Siblings, Friends,. Love to write and write.Love Choc. Love cheese, Love shopping. blog is the place where I express everything.:)