a new dawn for a new beginning
the words of stupidity and dumbness do filled my heart for this week, yeah, of course i am, my stupidity and my dumbness of making decision, haha, why should i be this stupid? where is all my intelligence? my mind? my brain that i used to be my friend when in need? like in this situation, and now, there is nothing can be my friend, just being lonely, handling all this condition by myself, without any mind to think with.
"hariz, just forget all the past" the only words that appear in my dry mind, yeah, i will, the best decision that i can make this moment, at least there is something else in my mind rather than zero right? okay, just forget it, really, i need to forget all those tears, hurt, heartbreaking condition and others sadness, or else i won't ever feel myself back, won't ever be alive again.
okay, i really meant it, i won't to forget all those numbness, that has snatched my tranquility and my serenity. although i know the reason for all of this is me! me the one who are too stupid, greedy, stingy and others, and at the of the day, i am the one who hurt a lot. haha, silly right? yahh. really silly.
and this time, the best thing to do is, write and write and write, yahhh, writing to make me a little bit relieve, or else i will drown by my own feeling that love to be in sad condition. stupid, stupid, stupid, the best word for me.
okay, i really mean to, i hope this dawn is the new beginning for me, the new start for me. i will let myself be happy again. forget all those stupidity that already occurred, all those hurt that i have made. seriously, i wan to make a change! let the past flow with the time, drown with the flow.
okay, now i feel so much better. i'm reborn and i'm no longer the old me, i won't ever return to my old one, i will be firmer than ever, i will be stronger than anyone expected, i will be tough - erk, this won't be happen. HAHA okay, making a sense of nonsense that don't even make a sense, okay, again stupid words. HAHAHAH
okay, really having a blast now, i will forget all the past, let the past being deleted from my mind. let bygone be bygone hariz. repent for all mistakes that you have done. okay. i'm happy now. :)