patience is just too nice
okay, first of all, i think this post will be in a rojak language, sorry to say. feeling really mess now. yeah, 2012 just began, and million things happen. so 'awesome'! -.- seriously, the beginning of this year, really turn me heartless, really bad beginning. and i don't know why..
first, my laptop rosak and becoming bengong. urghh, really tension when this thing happen, yeah, of course i am tension, million works need to be done, the lecture slides, the presentation slides and others. fuhhh, alhamdulillah, with God mercy and plus my mom kindness i got a new one. yeah, i know i am excited with this new one, but no one can't ever replace our first right? so do like we are coupling, we will love our first so much right? yeah, of course, it is our pioneer to the new world, how come we didn't love them. okay, forget about this silly comparison..
and recently, i heard about people are talking about me and making as their conversation topics, these really make me fuming mad!
seriously, those words really make me either sad, mad, and of course my heart turn pieces, sometimes, i just feel like wanna give them a punch at their own face. who are you to judge me? i am doing whatever i'm like and there is nothing that i do related to you! okay, and now i really mad, yesterday, i post something at my facebook account, the status about my feeling, and many people do apologize to me. but the problem, those who always talk about me at the back never apologize. yeah, seriously, human being is really a complicated creature. selalu lupa dengan apa yang sediri buat, tapi apa sahaja yang orang laen buat kalau boleh sume mende nak condemn nak mocking kat orang laen, nak ngumpat and sometimes even wanna make a stupid slander!
hey come on la man! buy a mirror first, Allah and Rasulullah never thought us to be this stupid, to be this silly, we are family right? if i'm wrong do say to me by yourself, don't make me as your conversation subjects. it's totally jerk! and also coward! no strength to tell the person face to face. COWARD!
yeah, i know sometimes i'm over the limit, i'm shopping without thinking the consequences, but i'm trying myself, i'm in the process of controlling those temptation. and i really need most of your support. i know, i'm not strong enough to make it true by myself.
okay, forget about this nonsense ridiculous things, thinking about this making me more sick. and this morning, i just finished myself presenting to the lecturer about my assignment paperwork, argghh, totall suck actually, i'm just pretending myself that everything is okay. yelaah, tak kan lah nak tunjuk kat orang ramai that i'm that weak kan? haha. yeah, of course this presentation do hurt me a lot, all the work, editing the slides, words, i made by me, i'm seeking for help last night from the other group members and it end up without any help at all. BRAVO! . really sad upon knowing every single group members attitude, no cooperation at all. i'm staying up late at night, finishing all works, studying and preparing myself for the presentation, and luckily, my best friend that stay upstairs still online and he accompany me. yeah, he is a really awesome guy! love you buddy! and guess what is the reaction of lecturer towards my work? lecturer hempas paperwork aku atas meja and said this word to me
seriously, my hurt really hurt that times, i hold my 'penumbuk' sambil tahan sabar. Ya Allah, just Allah tahu perasaan aku masa tu, aku burn midnight oil doing the jobs without any help at all, and this what i get.
and then , aku still kept the patience to myself. or else there will be more stupid things i will do. that's why patience is too nice. Rasulullah once said
sorry, i'm just taking a cut of the hadis, it was too long and i didn't memories it all, just that part. Alhamdulillah, i'm conscious, patience, still have heart, and tak suke cakap belakang!
p/s: sorry, some of my words in this post is too harsh and worst, i'm following my emotional, sometimes i need to follow my own emo rather than just being stupid accept all things with a really open arm and with a fake smile at the face.
first, my laptop rosak and becoming bengong. urghh, really tension when this thing happen, yeah, of course i am tension, million works need to be done, the lecture slides, the presentation slides and others. fuhhh, alhamdulillah, with God mercy and plus my mom kindness i got a new one. yeah, i know i am excited with this new one, but no one can't ever replace our first right? so do like we are coupling, we will love our first so much right? yeah, of course, it is our pioneer to the new world, how come we didn't love them. okay, forget about this silly comparison..
and recently, i heard about people are talking about me and making as their conversation topics, these really make me fuming mad!
"hey, korang tengok tak hariz tu? every week barang baru, ade je mende baru dye pakai"
"hey budak ZARA, nak pinjam baju bole? eh, mne bole, kite x layak pakai baju mcm dye"
"hey, banyak mane mak ko spend utk ko nie? sume mende berjenama pakai"
" untungla hariz kan? macam macam dapat. dye sepatutnya x dapat tajaan MARA nie"
seriously, those words really make me either sad, mad, and of course my heart turn pieces, sometimes, i just feel like wanna give them a punch at their own face. who are you to judge me? i am doing whatever i'm like and there is nothing that i do related to you! okay, and now i really mad, yesterday, i post something at my facebook account, the status about my feeling, and many people do apologize to me. but the problem, those who always talk about me at the back never apologize. yeah, seriously, human being is really a complicated creature. selalu lupa dengan apa yang sediri buat, tapi apa sahaja yang orang laen buat kalau boleh sume mende nak condemn nak mocking kat orang laen, nak ngumpat and sometimes even wanna make a stupid slander!
hey come on la man! buy a mirror first, Allah and Rasulullah never thought us to be this stupid, to be this silly, we are family right? if i'm wrong do say to me by yourself, don't make me as your conversation subjects. it's totally jerk! and also coward! no strength to tell the person face to face. COWARD!
yeah, i know sometimes i'm over the limit, i'm shopping without thinking the consequences, but i'm trying myself, i'm in the process of controlling those temptation. and i really need most of your support. i know, i'm not strong enough to make it true by myself.
okay, forget about this nonsense ridiculous things, thinking about this making me more sick. and this morning, i just finished myself presenting to the lecturer about my assignment paperwork, argghh, totall suck actually, i'm just pretending myself that everything is okay. yelaah, tak kan lah nak tunjuk kat orang ramai that i'm that weak kan? haha. yeah, of course this presentation do hurt me a lot, all the work, editing the slides, words, i made by me, i'm seeking for help last night from the other group members and it end up without any help at all. BRAVO! . really sad upon knowing every single group members attitude, no cooperation at all. i'm staying up late at night, finishing all works, studying and preparing myself for the presentation, and luckily, my best friend that stay upstairs still online and he accompany me. yeah, he is a really awesome guy! love you buddy! and guess what is the reaction of lecturer towards my work? lecturer hempas paperwork aku atas meja and said this word to me
" i don't want this thing! i have told you what you must do! and look, not like what i'm want, i want it like a book, in a file, 2 CD's instead of one"
seriously, my hurt really hurt that times, i hold my 'penumbuk' sambil tahan sabar. Ya Allah, just Allah tahu perasaan aku masa tu, aku burn midnight oil doing the jobs without any help at all, and this what i get.
AWESOME!
and then , aku still kept the patience to myself. or else there will be more stupid things i will do. that's why patience is too nice. Rasulullah once said
"sabar itu adalah separuh daripada iman......."
sorry, i'm just taking a cut of the hadis, it was too long and i didn't memories it all, just that part. Alhamdulillah, i'm conscious, patience, still have heart, and tak suke cakap belakang!
assamualaikum, and thanks..
p/s: sorry, some of my words in this post is too harsh and worst, i'm following my emotional, sometimes i need to follow my own emo rather than just being stupid accept all things with a really open arm and with a fake smile at the face.